2003- 2007 Virginia State University- College
It didn't take me long to realize that the things that I needed when I was in MA was not the things I wanted or cared about it VA. I went out and played Volleyball and when I advised that we would have 5am practice I advised that i couldn't continue as I love to sleep!!! I had all intentions when entering college to continue to be in shape. I was no longer devoted to working out or volleyball. So I said my goodbyes and went back to what I loved... Track! 1 problem I am an asthmatic child from Massachusetts running track in Virginia heat.... it just didn't work out so I focused on classes. Needless to say, by the end of my first semester I was 1/2 way to my freshmen 15. Whats freshmen 15? Freshmen 15 was first explained to me by my older brother who advised me that upper class males would try to sleep with 15 different incoming freshmen. That is not what I mean. Freshmen 15, for purposes of this blog, is the 15lbs that most freshmen females put on due to stress and unhealthy eating habits. Skipping breakfast grabbing a burger in Foster Hall was catching up to me quickly. My metabolism slowed down and for the first time I saw my self getting thick. At first I was so excited!!!! I was finally rounding out like all my other black female friends. My boobs went from a 34B to a 34 D... That caused me no stress but at the end of sophomore year I was a 36 D and I began to get worried. 2003- 2007 was a battle in its self. My parents divorced and although I was 500 miles away I was thrown right in the middle. No one really talks about stress causing weight gain but I know for me it contributed. My college days ended with me weighting in at 170lbs and with a gym membership and a bachelor's degree in psychology in hand I was going to lose this weight and fix my head.
Where track and field was my past time in high school, shopping and eating became the focus in college. Upon completion of college I was unhappy that i let myself go. I hated track, I hated shopping and I was beginning ,for the first time in my life, to hate my BODY! Now my psych degree is only a bachelors so i am not able to diagnose anyone. But if I could I would advise you all that I had a very mild case of body dimorphic. Yes I was fat, but not as I fat as I thought I was but worse was that in my mind I still saw a size five and when I tried to pull those jeans up and the refused my life went on a downward spiral.
2007-2009
I found out in June 2007 I was prego! OH NO! You must be crazy, I've been losing weight! Once again another thing no one told me. You can lose weight in the beginning of your pregnancy and oh yea.... you can prego on birth control pills even if you've taken them for 4 yrs!!! From 170- 210.... My journey began January 1, 2009
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